Suriaga, Rizamae A.

Well, all of us has a hero that may exist or not in our life!!!!. Speaking of a hero, for me?, the one that u feel his/ her presence in u even u can't see him/ her, the one that can do all possible thing just to make you happy and alleviate the pain you feel.

I am not a perfect person but having a two hero in my life was considerably perfect for me. My mother was the first one. Unfortunately she's not with me since my 4th year high school. Wondering why?, well it's a very very long story to tell. In all of the pain I've given to her, here she is still thinking of me. Every time I called them and checked how are they, she always answered me this, "wag mo kami alalahanin, ok kami, ang sarili mo ang uingatan mo, ikaw ang mag-ingat dyan!.. Lagi ka mag pray!" How painful it is, recalling the times I chose to follow what I want without thinking them, the way they feel...

She's my hero because of a simple thing---- she's been there since I was born until now even we're not together living in a house. She become my wall in all the intrigues thrown to me, she's always catches the pain that's in fact for me. In all the times, this part of my life only I realize that wherein we're already away w/ each other, the time I realized that she's been the very important person in my life. Thinking of the person that besides me in times of difficulties, she's the one that never give up just to support me. but what I've done, i hurt her but still she's there!!!! What a mother!!!!

The other one was no other than our GOD!!! Our savior!!!!! The times I've been alone and no one to shared problems with, I always think of him... I always tell my problem on him then I'll' asked for a sign of what i will do... Only God granted all my wishes, only God gave me all this blessing, only him!!!! His my feet that walk me into his way and my hand that hold me and pull me when I'm down!!!!!

I was 18 years of age right now. At this young age I can say that I have experienced different challenges of life more compare to other teenagers. My only strength was God in times of that.
Why does, God puts regret at the end? Why do we realize the things we’ve lost only when it’s too late? Why we can’t bring back the time that pass, if what we only want is to make things right? If God will give me a chance to make all of this possible, I will not change the path where I will be but I have something to add, a piece to complete my life. It’s not literally and simply a piece but it’s the reason why I do not still have full happiness.

When I was in the time of deciding, 3-4 years ago, was thinking that I had the right decision. I never looked at those persons who love me and didn’t want to lose me. I didn’t know why I did not realize that. I blame my self right now for not seeing my mom in pain of my decision, my younger brother and sister without the knowledge of what was happening that time. My grandma and grandpa were thinking what to do and say to me, for me not to leave them. Why don’t I realize that? What’s wrong with me that time? What’s forcing me to do that? Now, I really miss them, I do really miss them!!!

I know I’ve lost something in my life that maybe it was the key for my true happiness. I’m happy right now, contented from what I have but not satisfied. If I can’t bring back the past, I can take back those pieces I’ve lost from the past!!!

My mom when I was a child always told me that nothing can be compare to the love your family had given to you. Hearing those words when I was young was just simply as listening but now I’ve gone far but not too away, I realized all the things my mother imparted to me. She also told to me, “Jet budlay magtiner sa balay kang ibang taho bukot patas sa sarili mo nga balay imaw namun kag mga bugto mo.” You will not understand but what my mother said was, it was hard to live with other people where you need to adjust unlike living with your real parents and siblings. She always and repeatedly telling me that but I was a Pasaway.

My mother used to hug me every time I have problems and when she saw me crying but that was when I was a child. I miss that kind a “LAMBING”. She, my brother and sister always woke me up every 10 am in the morning, that’s my time of going up from my bed when I had no class. They “KILITI” me, for me to wake-up.

There are so many things my mother told me. The last words she told me was the powerful and remarkable word he said and that was during the time I say sorry for what I’ve done and cause. She said to me, “Jet magpray kaw pirme, hindi kami pagdumduma kay kaya namun kaugalingon namun ikaw ang maghalong dyan.” She said that I will pray always and not to think them because they can take care of their self and for the last time my mother was still thinking of me.

Until now, my best friend was God I’m not praying for my self only but for my family, my new family, friends and to all people surrounds me. I have no regret from what I become right now. I only regret for those I have lost and I want it back. I will. Now, do you already know, What or Who are the missing pieces of my life? God bless!!!

I'm of those people who love Richard

Gutierrez despite of all intrigues about

him......

he's so very handsome,

but now a days, sad to say, he have no

movies or either projects.

i like mah wedding gown like this!!!!!!!

oh Gosh!!!
can't believe it!!!

is this me????
hahahha

tsubatsutsu..... tsubatsutsu......

Our group and I accomplished our scheduled duty in the virtual lab this afternoon. It took for us 5 meetings for 2weeks to accomplished it. It should be 6 meetings but because of inauguration of President Noynoy Aquino tomorrow, it was compress.

We have two rotations for the virtual lab, the OB setting and the OR setting. Speaking of OB it's quite easy because some of the actions needed to perform there have we already know. On contrast to that, OR setting is quite difficult not because of identifying the different instruments but the procedure, how it is going to perform in orderly manner. In addition to that, is because of our clinical instructor (CI), "hehehe, Sir Jordan peace?" He's toxic, scary that made me forget the procedure and what to do next. And that because we're the first to perform it and we have no OR experience yet. Yes, it was explained and showed to us what and how to do it but my feeling of nervousness comes first that results to mental black..
What Sir Jordan did was for our own good. He shared to us what he knows and made feel to us what was done in reality in order for us to be onform and be aware and prepare. We thanks for he is our clinical instructor because now we know we have learned a lot from him.
Being a good OR nurse, you should be faithful to your work and responsibilities, and not to be scared of the procedure or mistakes if so. You should think to do your best to minimize or moreover to avoid mistakes because in reality there's no space for mistakes in our field. Only God can help us don't forget that. We should be strong and confident for us to be trusted by our client/patient.

Actually, you guys look that picture above...he's mister Jordan....................

guys....hope you like it....

ever since.... i'v never made a thing like this...

Jay told me awhile go.... " ilayo mo ung electric fan, nahahanginan ka na"

"sa ulo"

hahaahh....

why things doesn't go in same way? why should we choose

among the two?

Sometimes reality hurts, I don't know what

to be happen tomorrow..

Now I realize the things my mother said before.......
No one among them want's their child to choose the wrong path.

But I choose to stand on my decision, thinking that I'm right of what I'm fighting for.

In my life now, I always think of what my mama said, there's a doubt in me....,why did I choose this life, living alone,, eye to eye contact with the television at night, listening to radio... There's no one to talk to.... but despite of that what fades the loneliness is my love to the person I choose.

God take me to this person...despite of problems and sufferings here we are still fighting for our love..